I swear to myself and the Univese at large, this is the absolute LAST suckwad Christmas I will allow to happen. It was okay to endure it when I was alone, because I could pretend it was just another day, but now that I have one of my kids living with me it is NOT OKAY. It is not okay to be lonely and somber while pretending to have fun, it is not okay to be NOT surrounded by family and friends, and it is ABSOLUTELY NOT OKAY TO NOT BE ABLE TO BE WITH THE WOMAN I LOVE ON CHRISTMAS. It is absolutely NOT FUCKING ACCEPTIBLE. This is me putting my foot down. I am not doing this again.
One way or the other next year is going to be different.